I feel so different. I'm always thinking about how exciting school is. Events, drama, friends, smiles, people, learning!!! I love learning. It makes me feel smart, you know? I just feel good, like I'm getting ahead of people in the game.
Recently I've been thinking about school a lot, even though it's been out. I can't stop thinking about it. I need to think about books and riding my bike and playing with my friends, but all I can think about is staying in shape for the track team and boys. I guess school doesn't really seem all that detrimental in my life, other than the drama and loads of work and stress. I don't usually make OUTSTANDING GRADES, but that's what I'm planning on doing.
For the first trimester, I'm thinking of outing myself of sports. Then again, I don't know if I want to play field hockey or not. I feel like I would be missing out on so much, but the field hockey program at school is just such a fucking drag. The coach is like some drill sergeant from the Navy (exaggeration) and the lot of practicing is condition sprinkled with only a little bit of dribbling/passing/shooting/guarding drills. We are ALWAYS playing some kind of defensive game, no matter what sport it is (unless you run track, cross country, wrestle, swim or cheer – and it's iffy with basketball and baseball).
IF I DECIDE NOT TO PLAY FIELD HOCKEY --} Anyways, taking myself out of sports will get me a head start on keeping up with homework. My school's library is absolutely beautiful, so I plan on staying there a little bit to stay up to date with things instead of getting behind. Everything in there is quiet and I can turn up my music, whisper the words and get some good old fashioned nerdy thinking done.
I also decided that I'm going to try and actually STUDY more. In 8th grade, I developed a sweet studying method that actually helps me learn stuff! It's like I could learn on my own
Wow I am such a fucking dork…
Anyways, I don't know if I'm going to play field hockey or not but I feel like it's still going to be extremely difficult whether or not I do play it. But maybe I can get some physical fitness benefits from it on top of training for track if I do play. I might also get some good recognition on my aggression once there's a 36-inch stick of pure hard mulberry wood in my hand (my stick's name is Mantis, and yes he's an STX – and yes I use a 36 inch because I'm miniature).
I've been thinking a lot about boys, too. I recently experienced what it feels like when someone only likes you as a friend. It burns! But he was really nice to me about it. I've been in the friend-zone for a while and I've stayed in the friend-zone. I was hurt at first because I'm never let out of the friend-zone with anyone. I'd been trying to muster up enough courage to confess to this guy for a while and it turns out I was too late (he used to have a crush on me). But we did sort of have something going on last winter and I'm happy for it. If you've read my last two submissions, you'll know what I'm talking about here. I plan on apologizing to him and everything will be happy again and I'll lie to him and tell him I'm over him and everything will be happy again! FRIENDSHIP
He also already has a girlfriend and yeah.
I was thinking that maybe some new guy would have a crush on me and hopefully I won't have a crush on him back. Part of me wants to forget boys and work towards a perfect report card, and then another part of me wants to experience the perfect relationship. There's also the idea of dating up, which could go either way: there could be some really sweet and mature nice guy that wants to go out with me, or some douchey dickbag that only wants to get in my pants (but I doubt that, because no one wants to get in my pants). Knowing me he will (quite easily, actually) and then he'll just make fun of me with his friends with whom he passes me around. I plan avoiding this situation in my freshman year at all costs.
I plan on books and good grades and bicycle rides and sweet dresses and innocence and flowers and learning to drive and having fun, lots of pictures and maybe a kiss or two with the SAME BOY. I just want freshman year to be as good as I imagine it to be and I'm willing to work for it.
See, after reading this, I understand some of you may think, 'this doesn't really sound like Kylie at all!', but I realized that I'm changing and maturing into a different person and I like myself this way. Who I am really despises the person I've been in the past years.
I've been stressing about school soo much…but I'm going to play some Brawl and eventually pass out into a dreamlike slumber where school will be one of my lesser woes…
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